Saturday, October 23, 2010


Late night, eyes heavy

Drifting, floating

Book down, lights off

Eyes open, feel the grit of another sleepless night

A million thoughts

Chasing, cavorting across the field of the mind

Homework, housework, deadlines loaming, bills, study, play, stress

Daughters, sisters, parents, spouse, demands, worry, concerns, stress

Illness, wellness, doctors, drugs, bills, stress

Woulda, shoulda, coulda colliding

Like bumper cars of the brain

Time: 4:00 a.m.



Move, turn, contact

Cuddle, caress, response

Two bodies move together in an ancient dance

Collapse, snuggle

Drifting, floating, sleeping

Dreamless rest

Slowly waken to filtered sunlight and bird songs

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Spiritual Wandering

A coworker and I were discussing whether or not to dress up for Halloween this year. There won’t be any little kids coming through trick-or-treating so we aren’t stuck with the “non-scary” restriction. I said I want to be a witch. MsHell said I should totally do that because I would make an awesome witch. I looked at her over my glasses and said “That’s because I am a witch.”

She fell for it.

I assured her that I am not a witch but I do know some. She just about flipped. Telling her that I knew wiccans and pagans and yes there are some here in the heart of Mississippi, the buckle of the Bible belt and telling her about what little I knew about the Wiccan and pagan beliefs caused her to act like a school girl being told a ghost story. No, witches do not do magic. Nobody is going to turn you ex into a frog. (If only!)
Why is it so hard to believe in the Goddess? We have a mother and a father. Why not a God and a Goddess? When you are hurt or sick, who do you turn to? Your mother. When you are scared? When you are lonely? When you are giddy with happiness? When you find a new love? When you lose your love? It is your mother. And it is the Goddess.

Our unity, our connections, these things come from the Goddess. Studies have shown that men and women are hardwired differently. Men think in terms of “fight or flight”, if I don’t kill it, it will kill me. Women are more likely to think in terms of hide or protect, it can’t kill me if it can’t see me.
The Judeo-Christian God is a vengeful god.  Either you do things his way or you will forever burn in Hell. The Wiccan or Pagan Goddess is kinder, gentler, more forgiving. There is no Hell. There is only Summerland and a return to the Wheel (or some variation of birth and rebirth).

Perhaps most telling of all; for many, believing in the Goddess includes believing in a God and for some, even a belief in Christ. Yes, there are Christian witches. Unfortunately, the Judeo-Christian God is not so lenient. Maybe it is the denial of the female side that leads to the misogyny that runs rampant thru the Judeo-Christian religions.

This is just the beginning of my exploration of my spirituality.  I don’t know where it will lead.

A quick reference:  (your mileage may vary)